I've always felt a little proud of my self for the decisions I made after college. I was unhappy with my career choice; very unhappy. I made it through student teaching hanging on by a thread. Many times I considered just quitting--throwing away the 3.5 years I'd put into this degree because I was that unhappy. But, somehow, I soldiered through. After college, I had great interviews, a job offer, etc. I just couldn't do it. So, I moved to Lawrence (of all places!) because my best friend had an extra room for 2 months. I worked at Dress Barn and Applebee's. I got drunk a lot. It was fun. Moving to California seriously just dropped in my lap and it didn't take me long to jump on it. It wasn't like I was so brave and thinking of ways to improve my life, it just happened. But that is where my blog title came from-Taking the Long Way. I feel like right now I'm living the life I'm supposed to be living, it just took a detour.
However, with all these fucking budget cuts, my job is now one of the ones that could possibly fall by the wayside. I know that shoulda woulda coulda's are pointless and stupid but I can't help but wonder: (I was totally channeling Carrie Bradshaw right there)
If I had just taken a job after college, where would I be right now? I can say for sure if it was a teaching job and I was still doing it, I would not be in the position I'm in now. This would be my 6th year. I would be perfectly safe. I might be miserable, but I'd have a guaranteed job. So here is the age old question: Which is more important, happiness or money? I realize that money can't buy happiness, but if I seriously lose my job, I don't know what I would do. I know the job market is tough everywhere. But here's the thing--it isn't like I could do anything else. I don't have a business degree or a random other degree that would qualify me for any other types of jobs. I have teaching--that's it. Since there are literally no school districts hiring, I don't know where else I would look. Sigh. I am hoping this will all blow over and not affect me. But who knows.
annie kate
6 years ago
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