Well, I've been thinking about writing a post about my lovely life over the last 4 days, but this is the 1st I've actually had the energy to potentially finish. This post is somewhat for nostalgia so that someday I can say, oh my, I actually did live through it. Because right now, I feel like I won't make it. (There is a lot of "woe is me" coming so brace yourself.)
Day 1--Thursday, surgery day. All in all, not so bad. I was a bit nervous, hadn't ever even had an iv as an adult. I told the gal I needed to go get the pee in the cup thing done when I got there at 10:30 cause I hadn't gone at all that morning, but then she just took me and got started which actually shocked me a bit because I didn't get to see my mom for like another hour and I just was kind of like huh. I remember being wheeled in, them sticking stuff in my iv and putting the mask on, and then blissfully that was all. Waking up was scary because I couldn't talk. Not one word. When I tried, nothing came out. That lasted for about an hour, and then my voice came back. Came home, slept most of the day.
Day 2--Friday, kind of a blur. I think I slept a lot, choked down my variety of pills in applesauce, tried to eat a little soup but promptly threw up. Ever since then have had a really bad cough and lots of mucus. Yuck I know.
Day 3--Saturday. Yeah, yesterday sucked a lot. I just never caught up on pain and fluids and was just miserable. Felt pretty sorry for myself yesterday.
Day 4--today--Sunday. Well, I at least got out of bed today. Up until now I hadn't left the bed except to go to the bathroom. Today I took a shower and went downstairs to watch tv for a couple of hours. I ate some mashed potatoes...that's all I've had for food so far.
Overall. Well, this is just really sucky. I knew it would be, and it's living up to it. There hasn't been one second where I wasn't in pain. I take the pain meds every 4 hours; for the hour after I take them it is slightly less--enough to drink a little more or eat potatoes, but otherwise it just hurts non-stop. I have to syke myself up to even swallow saliva because it hurts so bad. Thank God for Sonic ice and slushies, for applesauce to throw pills down my throat, and for cold packs that wrap around my neck. Oh and also my mom. I would have thrown me out by now. I think the worst part is that I know I'm not very close to feeling better--still have several more days like this from what I gather. My dr. said the worst days are day 3-8. I'm not sure if surgery day counts as "day 1" or if it isn't until the first post-op day. If that's the case, then today was just my 3rd day and I have probably at least 5 more shitty ones. It is so pathetic, but I literally just don't think I can make it. Obviously the intelligent part of my brain knows I won't actually die....but it just sucks.
In other news, wow, Japan...I just don't know what to say! I didn't realize how many people I knew in Japan at this point in time! My friend Marnie from high school was on a tour of Joseph/Dreamcoat in Tokyo which has since been cancelled from what I gather. A couple of other random people too, but my cousin Teresa was the one I was most worried about. She and her husband Ty live there about 6 months a year because he plays basketball on a Japanese team. They live in Utsunomiya which I of course didn't know where it was located until this. (It's between Toyko and Sendai, but closer to Tokyo.) Anyway, they're fine, but she was home in their apartment by herself and he was at practice 30 min. away when the quake struck. She doesn't have a cell phone, speaks no Japanese, and was home alone. So she just ran into the street w/ all the other people and stood out their waiting for Ty to come get her. Crazy stuff. She and her husband skyped into a Sacramento news show so I got to watch that. Just for fun I googled him, he has a wikipedia page--big star. :)
Ok, so that's all. Just FYI if you talk to me in the next couple of days, I'm trying to hold it together, but I feel very crappy and sorry for myself!!! Hoping like hell that I feel better soon.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tyler_Newton
