Tonsil Hell

Well, I've been thinking about writing a post about my lovely life over the last 4 days, but this is the 1st I've actually had the energy to potentially finish. This post is somewhat for nostalgia so that someday I can say, oh my, I actually did live through it. Because right now, I feel like I won't make it. (There is a lot of "woe is me" coming so brace yourself.)

Day 1--Thursday, surgery day. All in all, not so bad. I was a bit nervous, hadn't ever even had an iv as an adult. I told the gal I needed to go get the pee in the cup thing done when I got there at 10:30 cause I hadn't gone at all that morning, but then she just took me and got started which actually shocked me a bit because I didn't get to see my mom for like another hour and I just was kind of like huh. I remember being wheeled in, them sticking stuff in my iv and putting the mask on, and then blissfully that was all. Waking up was scary because I couldn't talk. Not one word. When I tried, nothing came out. That lasted for about an hour, and then my voice came back. Came home, slept most of the day.

Day 2--Friday, kind of a blur. I think I slept a lot, choked down my variety of pills in applesauce, tried to eat a little soup but promptly threw up. Ever since then have had a really bad cough and lots of mucus. Yuck I know.

Day 3--Saturday. Yeah, yesterday sucked a lot. I just never caught up on pain and fluids and was just miserable. Felt pretty sorry for myself yesterday.

Day 4--today--Sunday. Well, I at least got out of bed today. Up until now I hadn't left the bed except to go to the bathroom. Today I took a shower and went downstairs to watch tv for a couple of hours. I ate some mashed potatoes...that's all I've had for food so far.

Overall. Well, this is just really sucky. I knew it would be, and it's living up to it. There hasn't been one second where I wasn't in pain. I take the pain meds every 4 hours; for the hour after I take them it is slightly less--enough to drink a little more or eat potatoes, but otherwise it just hurts non-stop. I have to syke myself up to even swallow saliva because it hurts so bad. Thank God for Sonic ice and slushies, for applesauce to throw pills down my throat, and for cold packs that wrap around my neck. Oh and also my mom. I would have thrown me out by now. I think the worst part is that I know I'm not very close to feeling better--still have several more days like this from what I gather. My dr. said the worst days are day 3-8. I'm not sure if surgery day counts as "day 1" or if it isn't until the first post-op day. If that's the case, then today was just my 3rd day and I have probably at least 5 more shitty ones. It is so pathetic, but I literally just don't think I can make it. Obviously the intelligent part of my brain knows I won't actually die....but it just sucks.


In other news, wow, Japan...I just don't know what to say! I didn't realize how many people I knew in Japan at this point in time! My friend Marnie from high school was on a tour of Joseph/Dreamcoat in Tokyo which has since been cancelled from what I gather. A couple of other random people too, but my cousin Teresa was the one I was most worried about. She and her husband Ty live there about 6 months a year because he plays basketball on a Japanese team. They live in Utsunomiya which I of course didn't know where it was located until this. (It's between Toyko and Sendai, but closer to Tokyo.) Anyway, they're fine, but she was home in their apartment by herself and he was at practice 30 min. away when the quake struck. She doesn't have a cell phone, speaks no Japanese, and was home alone. So she just ran into the street w/ all the other people and stood out their waiting for Ty to come get her. Crazy stuff. She and her husband skyped into a Sacramento news show so I got to watch that. Just for fun I googled him, he has a wikipedia page--big star. :)

Ok, so that's all. Just FYI if you talk to me in the next couple of days, I'm trying to hold it together, but I feel very crappy and sorry for myself!!! Hoping like hell that I feel better soon.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tyler_Newton

Just listen!

Dear internet,

I need to get a few things off my mind regarding some shitty stuff.

Well, first things first, this isn't shitty but scary! I'm getting my tonsils out 2 weeks from today! Gulp. Of course I've read probably every horror story on the internet which makes me want to run screaming from the surgery center but I know it'll be worth it in the long run! If you are uninformed like I previously was, getting tonsils out as an adult sucks. The recovery time is 10-14 days. I have 10 days off to recover (11 counting surgery day). Hopefully it'll happen!

Part two of this. My last couple weeks of work have been nothing short of shitty. I've pretty much dreaded going to work every day. (B, if you're reading this you probably want to stop here.) Basically about 2 weeks ago a co worker --let's call her Cindy Lou--and I got into a small fender bender in the back of the school parking lot. My car has minimal damage (scratches and nicks) and her bumper is cracked on the side. Long story short, I don't think either of us had any chance of seeing each other. At the beginning, she assumed it was my fault; I think that's at least gone. I don't believe it was my fault at all (nor do I think it's hers). So after getting some great cop advice, I was all about filing a police report and washing my hands of it. But of course, it was on private property so that didn't work. After reading for what seems like hundreds of hours every night since then on any internet site that has anything to do with insurance, accidents, Kansas, no-fault states, blah blah blah it seems to me like this is how it would go down. We would both be found 50% at fault since there would be no way to determine it (also looked at as no-fault). That means, you fix yours and I fix mine. Now I am not going to fix mine...so basically an accident is going to get reported on my insurance and my rates will probably go up and I'll get nothing in return. Cindy Lou is a friend of mine, so I am by no means trying to say sorry, screw you, pay for it all and I'll go on my merry way. So, since many/the most common deductible amount is $500, I offered to pay her $250. That would make them (Cindy Lou and her husband--let's call him the Grinch) pay less out of pocket and me not have to file w/ insurance. I know that isn't necessarily win win, but it's about as close to win win as you can get. Yes their insurance would probably go up, but they're replacing the whole front of their car--so at least they'd get something. But the Grinch seems to make the decisions in the family. (Cindy Lou says "That sounds reasonable" until she talks to him.) So now, the solution is their insurance calls my insurance, both companies will probably say they can't determine fault so each person pay for their own (same as above scenario). Again, I am not fixing anything so my rates will just go up for the fun of it and Cindy Lou and the Grinch will owe $250 more out of pocket than they would have. That sounds like lose lose to me. So basically, anytime Cindy Lou turns the corner I want to run the other way. I don't necessarily want to spend time around her right now; but that is impossible. My mom's solution is to say, "Sorry Cindy Lou, I'm not going to give you my insurance info. Tough." Of course, she isn't taking into consideration the possibility of how long Cindy Lou and I might have to work together. (That's where the "Just listen!" title from this post comes from.) So basically it fucking sucks and I have to force a fake smile everytime I turn the corner and Cindy Lou is there when I really just want to pretend we don't know each other.

Thanks for listening internet.

refreshing

As everyone else is this time of year, after millions of inches of snow and cold, I've just been ready for it to be over! Today was a beautiful day and an unexpected visitor and afternoon with 2 of my gal pals just made me feel like I took a big breath of fresh air. Ready to take on only my 2nd full week of work this year!

Silly, but...

...I am so bummed about my Discover card! I was so excited--only $1.68 away from hitting my $50 cashback (the smallest amount you can cash in if you want to use it as a payment). So I was very excited, had a little Xmas leftover on the credit card and was sure I'd be able to use the $50 to pay it down. I opened my statment and I now have $49.87 in cashback--$.13 away! Ugh.

I had something else really profound to write about, and I can't remember. Maybe it'll come back to me--I know you'll be waiting with bated breath.

so long 2010...

Well, everyone seems to be posting these blogs and status' about their love/hate for the year 2010. Not wanting to leave it behind, excited for 2011, etc. If I could sum up my feelings in one word, it would be "meh." 2010 was not bad, but not particularly memorable. There were a few things that weren't good, but they've turned out fine.

So, 2011, I guess I'd like a little pizazz--only good stuff though. Please and thank you.

hahahahahaha

Free stuff

I love free stuff. I was reading an article (I love reading articles about money, saving, etc.) and found the website www.savecreatively.com. They have a "free stuff" section full of websites for free samples. You don't have to take surveys or any of that crap. So far I've signed up for:
*emergen-c (2 different ones)
*gummy vitamins (2 different ones)
*tampons (2 different ones)
*ear plugs (who knows? I might need them someday)
*box of kleenex
*deodorant
*lotion
*50 sheets of origami paper (surely I can use it at school)
*some weird tape/dispenser thing (again, I'll take it to school)
*lube (who knows, maybe useful someday...)
*coupon book

Looking forward to 6-8 weeks from now when all my free stuff starts pouring in. haha